Friend...

You know how you always have something to say to or ask of someone, but you never really get a answer that you really understand?   A person who you can confide in and know that they will try their best to help you understand? I can't seem to find that person, it is odd that I am always the listener, but it feels like when I talk to someone about what's bothering me, no one is there. Why is that, why do I always attract the people who can't hold a conversation worth a damn, I mean I have a few people in my life who can, but I see them so far inbetween that it doesn't help when I have a question and they are not here.

Why do I have this nature to always help people out, and when you talk to them about a problem, they don't seem to care. I often wonder if it is just because of the way that I think in general. But, then I become baffled that so many others in this world cannot think the same way, by that I mean in the way they think, not WHAT they think, I really don't want people to think the same thoughts as myself.

I find it an odd part of life, our needs and wants. The fundlementals are obvious, but the individual's are so different from person to person.

I wish people could just open their inner eye and see what is around them. See the realness of what they can't see with their eyes.
Maybe I just need more time, I feel that, however, it is getting away from me. I don't have the control over it that I use to, or at least thought I had.

Until next time, a moment of time...
~S.J.